atric hospital Ljubljana Polje became apprentice of Slovenian UDBA killers who delivered me to Belgrade when he was 16 years old. He too had a secret UDBA identifications which granted one superior privileges opposed to police when delivering me to Belgrade. Bojan Zalar didn't have a driving examination done when he set next to me with older Slovenian UDBA prosecutor and Bojan Zalar was/is related to top Slovenian UDBA judges in Ljubljana - he is a son of privileged UDBA people from Ljubljana who ate with silver spoon since his birth.
THAN HARD CORE UDBA ASSASSINS AND THAT INCLUDED JANEZ JANŠA, IGOR BAVČAR, DIMITRIJ RUPEL AND OTHER THE SO CALLED SLOVENIAN PRO INDEPENDENCE POLITICIANS. I REMEMBER MOTHER AND FATHER OF BOJAN ZALAR. I REMEMBER FAMILY FROM CHILDHOOD WITH JUDGED AND TOP PEOPLE FROM LJUBLJANA WHO PUSHED FORWARD FOR THE SAKE OF SOME SLOVENIAN HUMAN EXPERIMENTATION INSTITUTE A BRITISH MADE HORMONE INJECTIONS WITH WHICH THEY EXPERIMENTED ON ME THROUGH THE USE OF TOTAL VIOLENCE - CHAOS.
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FROM MY POINT OF VIEW, SLOVENIA SHOULD HAVE BEN LONG LONG AGO DECIMATED INTO DUST(NUKED 100X TIMES OUT OF EXISTENCE) AS IS WORSE THAN WHAT NEONAZI GERMANY WAS. YOU KNOW, THEY LOVE TO BUTCHER PEOPLE IN HERE IN THIS LITTLE COUNTRY. THEY PLAY WITH DEATH ON OPEN.
THE ONE THAT MOLESTS YOU BEGINNING YOUR AGE 1 AND THE "NICE" IS THE ONE THAT GIVES YOU SHORT BREAK BEFORE YOU ARE BEING THROWN INTO POOL OF OWN BLOOD AGAIN. BLONDE MOTHER WITH UNIVERSITY DEGREE OF ZALAR WAS SEXY AND "NICE" FOR THE ONLY REGRET I WILL EVER HAVE IS TO NOT SENTENCE HER TO DEATH WITH THEIR ENTIRE FAMILY....BEASTS. I BELIEVE THEY LIVED IN APARTMENT BUILDING IN LJUBLJANA AND BOJAN ALSO HAS A BROTHER. ITS NOT EVIL THAT GETS MK ULTRA VICTIM MURDERED, BUT "THE NICE"(IMPOSSIBLE TO ESCAPE "THE NICE" AS NICE IS BASED ON HORRIFIC TERROR/TRAUMA AND FOREMOST PHYSICAL ABUSE/TORTURE/BUTCHERY).
AND NURSE JANKO HAPPY AND/OR MY NIECE URSKA GOLOB VEBER WHO WAS DROWNING IN EXTASY OBSERVING ME SUFFER...
Slovenec ne zna biti vodja
Objavljeno 06. september 2016 13.15 | Posodobljeno 06. september 2016 13.13 | Piše: Katja Cah
Ključne besede: Ona Bojan Zalar klinični psiholog
Prof. dr. Bojan Zalar, klinični psiholog.
Odpri galerijo
Prof. dr. Bojan Zalar, generalni direktor Univerzitetne psihiatrične klinike Ljubljana in predavatelj na Medicinski fakulteti, veliko govori, a tudi veliko pove. Svetovljanskega gospoda s strokovno izobrazbo, pridobljeno pri nas in v Veliki Britaniji, so – kot njegove predhodnike – doletele tudi nekatere kritike in vsako je resno proučil, sicer pa se seveda raje osredotoča na uspehe. Mednje med drugim uvršča dejstvo, da ustanova sredi čudovitega zelenja in dreves, ki jo vodi že deveto leto, nima ograj ter posluje s pozitivnim rezultatom. Pogovarjala sva se v njegovi pisarni dan po odmevnem sestanku vodij zdravstvenih ustanov, ki ga je sklicala ministrica za zdravje Milojka Kolar Celarc, a ni bila prisotna.
Kako je bilo včeraj na ministrstvu? Ste se v zvezi s skrb vzbujajočimi razmerami zmenili kaj prelomnega?
Dokončno ne. Imeli smo predavanje gospoda Miklavčiča, ki se ukvarja z varnostjo pravosodnih organov in tovrstno problematiko. Razumem, da smo šele pri zbiranju podatkov, kakšno je stanje v zdravstvu. Sledijo ukrepi, o tem, kakšni bodo, še nismo govorili.
Lahko komentirate ministričino odsotnost na srečanju – zaradi odhoda na dopust?
Težko, ker njenih razlogov v resnici ne poznam. Verjetno bi bilo prav, da bi bila zraven.
Kje vi kot generalni direktor vidite rešitev, kako prekiniti kaotično stanje v zdravstvu?
Zadeve moramo urejati že direktorji sami, ker gre za tako vročo problematiko, da nimamo časa za čakanje na sistemske rešitve. Te so, kot veste, tudi vedno povprečne. Takšne sicer morajo biti zaradi nekega splošnega reda, vendar običajno pripomorejo k zgolj podpovprečnim rešitvam. Nekateri smo dolgo časa vpeti v takšen način življenja in smo se morali prilagajati že veliko prej, kot se je o tem sploh govorilo. Psihiatrija je eno od področij v zdravstvu, kjer je imela civilna družba svoja mnenja in stališča že daleč v preteklosti. Precej je laičnih in premalo strokovnih odzivov na naše delo. V javnosti je v zvezi z nami nakopičene veliko jeze. Nekaj jo je zagotovo upravičene. Glede na to, da imamo približno sedemdeset do osemdeset tisoč obravnav na leto, in če prispe sto pripomb, ni veliko. V praksi jih je približno deset do dvajset na leto. Za vsak eksces odredimo strokovni nadzor, ki ga obravnava, sprejmemo sklepe in odločitve, ki vplivajo na nadaljnji potek dela. Pripombe bodo vedno – neupravičene in upravičene. Poskušamo jih odpraviti, ker si želimo, da obravnava duševnosti poteka bolje kot drugod po Evropi. Tujina nam to marsikje že priznava. Treba se je ukvarjati tudi z neupravičeno jezo, ki jo je praviloma precej več. Ni pa vsaka jeza enaka, vsaj izrazi se ne.
V kakšnem smislu?
Jeza, ki v možganih vztraja dolgo časa, se lahko prekvalificira v vedenjsko obliko. Ta pa je včasih spet v domeni nekih nadzorovanih ali nenadzorovanih sistemov, ki lahko povzročajo telesni stik oziroma fizično nasilje. Nekateri to izvajajo bolj načrtno, drugi impulzivneje.
Se bojite, da bi se tudi pri vas zgodilo kaj podobnega kot avgusta letos v izolski splošni bolnišnici?
Kakšnih direktnih indicev za to nimamo, možnosti pa vedno obstajajo. Pogosto nastanek hitro zaznamo, ga poskušamo obvladovati in reševati čim bolj prilagojeno.
Veste, milijon razlogov je, da lahko ljudje živijo, oviti v take misli – da je kriv nekdo drug. Saj poznate rek, da če dolgo lažeš o nečem, to postane »resnica« in to tudi verjameš. Seveda pa narava sama poskrbi, da se dolgoročno razkrije prava resnica.
Kakšen je profil osebe, ki si vzame pravico, da ubije nekoga, ki ga pravzaprav niti ne pozna, povsem neracionalno?
Zelo različno. O prevladi osebnostnih motenj pri ljudeh se že veliko piše in govori. Vedno si predstavljamo, da gre za psihopatske osebnosti. Trenutno je v našem klasifikacijskem sistemu bolezni disocialna, v tujini antisocialna osebnostna motnja, gre pa v bistvu za približno enako stvar. Govoriva o impulzivnem, abruptnem ali načrtovanem manipulativnem in agresivnem dejanju – takšnem ali drugačnem – ker veste, psihopat ni nujno tudi zločinec. Veliko psihopatije ostane na nižji ravni kaznivih dejanj, ker se zaradi specifičnih dejavnikov hitreje zapletajo in pridejo v navzkrižje z zakonom. Zelo malo se jih rekrutira do tistih ekstremnih vzorcev, ki jih poznamo iz filmov. Pogosteje pri motnjah t. i. narcisistične oblike, ko so osebe po svoji prepričanosti edino one tiste prave in pomembne ter dobijo občutek večvrednosti, si druge podrejajo, jih imajo za manj pomembne ter si v skrajnosti celo jemljejo pravico nekomu nekaj vzeti, odločati ali ukrepati tudi s silo. Pogoste so tudi druge strukture osebnostnih motenj, paranoidne in mejne oblike. Manj verjetno, vendar mogoče pa to lahko storijo v sinergiji nekaterih dejavnikov tudi drugi.
Kako prepoznamo psihopate, ki nimajo kartoteke, pa tudi delajo škodo?
Veste, kaj postaja zanimivo: poleg osebnostnih motenj v psihiatriji obstaja še naslednja stopnja, o kateri se bo še veliko govorilo čez nekaj let ali pozneje. To so t. i. sosede duševnih motenj. Niso v celoti duševne motnje, ker ne dosežejo njihovih kriterijev, denimo stanj blodnjavosti, halucinacij, disociativnosti oziroma kategorije neke psihoze, shizofrenije ali še kaj tretjega. Spet drugič nimajo neravnovesja v telesnih hormičnih funkcijah, kar povzroča obliko vedenja in doživljanja, ki tvori ogrodje grobe duševne motnje. Poglejte, bolj kot je neka čista negativna emocija izražena, bližje je telesu in telesnim funkcijam, kot neka denimo abstraktna misel. Slednja je dolgoročno skupaj z vplivom nekaterih ljudi ali negativnega konteksta sicer lahko škodljiva, ki se kaže denimo v fanatizmu, a kadar neko dejanje narediš manj organizirano in pripravljeno, za to potrebuješ višjo stopnjo telesne napetosti na podlagi negativne emocije, kot je denimo sovraštvo ali bes. Več je možnosti za to, da nekdo nekoga fizično napade in celo ubije.
Kot v Izoli?
Drži, vendar ni prav, da se na podlagi tega primera, ki je bil tragičen, odpira vsesplošni čvek kvalificiranih in nekvalificiranih oseb in podajanje pluralizma vsemogočih idej, predavanj in prodaje drage in morda nepotrebne opreme, na podlagi česar bi se že tako kaotične razmere še bolj zapletale in rešitve časovno oddaljevale. Pojavljajo se tudi svetovalci v narekovajih. Takšna izobraževanja težko gledam že dvajset let. Včasih, ko koga pošljemo na kakšno izobraževanje, ki nima večje kredibilnosti, ne veš, ali pride človek nazaj bolj pobebljen, kot je šel tja. Potem imaš dvakratni problem. Z vsem tem izgubljamo bistvo, s katerim se moramo ob takšni pojavnosti sistematično spopadati in ukvarjati.
Bistvo pa je?
Določiti moramo, kateri vitalni deli zdravstva so zares najbolj ogroženi. Ostal bom pri našem primeru, da ne bom prepameten za vso Slovenijo. Na lokaciji, kjer sva zdaj, to je na Centru za klinično psihiatrijo, je največ pacientov, ki se odzivajo konkretno in lahko tudi vedenjsko agresivno. Verbalne agresije, nezadovoljstva in negodovanja pa je ogromno na vstopni točki, tj. dispanzerju oziroma na Centru za zunajbolnišnično dejavnost – polikliniki. Tam, kjer je večji poudarek na biološki psihiatriji, pridemo do tega, o čemer sva govorila prej, torej do odzivov, ki so bližje telesnemu odzivanju. Kadar gre za motnje telesnih funkcij, hormičnih in drugih procesov, je to povezano s kategoričnimi mislimi in motoričnim odzivom.
Pojavljajo se tudi svetovalci v narekovajih. Takšna izobraževanja težko gledam že dvajset let. Včasih, ko koga pošljemo na izobraževanje, ki nima večje kredibilnosti, ne veš, ali pride človek nazaj bolj pobebljen, kot je šel tja. Potem imaš dvakratni problem.
Večkrat ste že povedali, da s porastom osebnostnih motenj ljudje v težavah prej krivijo druge, ne več sebe, kot je veljalo nekoč.
Tako je, samokritičnost močno upada. Govorimo o začasnem odmiku od močnih občutkov krivde in posledičnih nevroz, ko se je val iz ene skrajnosti prevesil v drugo. Gre za zadnje obdobje dvajsetih, tridesetih let.
To, da krivca za svojo nesrečo ali nezadovoljstvo vedno najdeš najprej v drugem, je tudi samouničevalno.
Na neki način zagotovo, vsekakor pa je lažje – v tistem trenutku. Veste, milijon razlogov je, da lahko ljudje živijo, oviti v take misli – da je kriv nekdo drug. Saj poznate rek, da če dolgo lažeš o nečem, to postane “resnica” in to tudi verjameš. Seveda pa narava sama poskrbi, da se razkrije prava resnica. To lahko traja zelo dolgo in spremembe morda sploh ne opazimo.
Kakšno je vaše mnenje o terapevtih, ki po navadi pridobivajo svoja znanja v kateri od ameriških šol? Opazna je zanimiva rdeča nit – razlog za človekov neuspeh so najožji sorodniki, starši, zato jih je treba – mamo ali očeta ali oba – nekako zaničevati, ker so nas učili takšno ali drugačno krivo vero. Vemo pa, da ko v človeku vzbudiš jezo do lastnih staršev – mu odvzameš ta temelj, ki ga najbolj definira – je šibek, lažje vodljiv.
Vsaj teoretično sem bil tudi sam izobražen pri slovenskih elitah psihoterapije. Ta je bila od nekdaj težje znanstveno preverljiva. Kadar se znotraj teoretskih konceptov usmerite zgolj na problem staršev, ste zanemarili drugo prav tako normalno okolje, denimo vrstnike in ljudi, ki poleg staršev pomembno vplivajo na posameznika, omogočijo nekatere izkušnje in povratne informacije; kako se znajde in kako je sprejet. Šolanje v naši ustanovi nima tako ozkega teoretičnega koncepta, večina slovenskih tako ali drugače oklicanih psihoterapevtov pa lahko ima nepreverljivo ali nekredibilno znanje, pridobljeno kjerkoli, tudi v Ameriki ali Angliji.
Vrstniki so bistveni v obdobju odraščanja, toda družina je vendarle vedno sveta, če se smem tako izraziti, saj te spremlja vse življenje.
Absolutno. Družina ima precej močan pomen. Zelo lahkomiselno je, če se to negira ali prikazuje v negativnem smislu. Navsezadnje zares velika večina staršev vedno stoji ob strani svojim otrokom. Prijatelji so lažje spremenljivi. Tudi druge relacije niso tako zanesljive. Odnosi med otroki in starši pa so precej stabilni, ko si vsaj nekako v resnih situacijah pomagajo. Seveda pa ne smejo zmagati tisti k sreči manjši odstotki posameznih družinskih zgodb, ki so tudi krute. Vemo, da se največ nasilja dogaja prav znotraj družine, ker je v njih nakopičenih največ emocij. Ključno vprašanje je, kako vzpostaviti pravo dinamiko, da otrok znotraj družine postane svoboden samostojen, odgovoren, sposoben kompleksnega razmišljanja. Napake staršev se seveda dogajajo, in kadar jih prepoznamo, je prav, da se jih rešuje konstruktivno, ne destruktivno in samovoljno. Ogromno je samovolje in nekakšnih ves čas spremenljivih načel. Od radikalno določene prehrane do dogmatične ali preveč permisivne vzgoje. Takšni ozki stereotipi ne preživijo in so dolgoročno uničevalni, onemogočajo življenje, primarno rast tako v telesnem kot duševnem pomenu. Podiranje temeljnih zdravih načel pa je nekaj, kar se morda dogaja v zahodni družbi.
Morda?
Včasih se vprašaš, kje smo zdaj?!
Kdo je postavil ali še postavlja zgrešene smernice?
Niso prišle na silo. Temu sam pravim kar kulturološki razvoj, tak zelo razpuščen.
Takšen, ki je bil spodbujen na nežen, prijazen način?
Ja. Včasih ob neodgovornem naraščanju demokracije nastaja demonokracija. Nastaja kaos. Pogosto se dogaja, da v masi govorcev zmaga najglasnejši, ne tisti, ki ima modro misel in bi lahko doprinesel k razvoju v Sloveniji – takšni so že tako v manjšini in jih zlahka zadušijo, preglasijo. Poglejte, Slovenija ima vse možnosti, da bi bila nadpovprečno uspešna država. Samo malo bi se morali urediti in dati pameti prostor.
Zakaj tega ne dopustimo?
Razlog je v selekciji, delujemo po nepravih kriterijih, sprejemajo se odločitve na podlagi konsenza, pri katerem je zdravo razmišljanje na obrobju. Naj dam primer: kadar imam resen problem in želim kot direktor nekaj izpeljati, lahko skličem sestanek ter v sobo pokličem nekaj deset ljudi, ne morem pa v sklepčnosti dobiti nič več kot povprečno misel – oprostite –, ker jo bodo zatolki bolj agresivni in glasnejši. Ti vplivajo tudi na tiste, ki niso motivirani reševati te materije, ali druge, ki imajo manj energije in se jim podredijo. Ne bo se izkristaliziral tisti del, ki ponuja najboljšo rešitev. To sem sicer doživel tudi na sestankih po Evropi.
Bi vi sprejeli ponudbo za ministra za zdravje?
V zadnjih letih sem bil že večkrat v igri, vendar nisem prepričan, da me to še zanima.
Dovolite mi vprašanje, ki zanima veliko ljudi: koliko ste zdravstveni delavci odvisni od farmacevtske industrije? Vemo, da je ta zelo močna in lahko letni dohodki samo enega podjetja včasih presežejo državne.
Tukaj imamo tudi malo sreče, da nismo prav velika država, ker se pri nas ne obračajo tako veliki denarji. Kdor nekaj plača, ima svojo računico. Večja nevarnost je, da se nekaj koruptivno sprejme v večjih državah in se potem prenaša k nam. Pri nas je sicer mogoče, da se dogajajo posebni primeri, ko so nekateri ljudje financirani s kakšnimi oblikami turističnega izobraževanja in potem iz hvaležnosti predpisujejo nekatere preparate – morda po ne najboljši presoji. Je pa to svetovni in ne le slovenski problem.
Vsake toliko se pojavi novica, da so katera od zdravil odstranjena iz prodaje zaradi neustreznosti, ker so denimo zanje ugotovili, da povzročajo samomorilnost in druge hude stranske učinke?
Včasih se zares pokaže, da nekaj klinično ne ustreza. Začuden si, zakaj je v navodilih za neko zdravilo naštetih ogromno stranskih učinkov, čeprav je denimo zahteven ameriški urad za prehrano in zdravila (FDA) ta preparat potrdil za uporabo. To storijo, da se zaščitijo. Zapišejo res skoraj vse morebitne stranske učinke, ki pa se lahko nikoli ne pokažejo ali pa se izjemoma pojavi kakšen, ki sploh ni zapisan.
V Sloveniji smo v samem vrhu, kar zadeva samomore. Ali drži, da se na leto načrtno ubije kar 700 državljanov?
To je že kar zgornja številka, rekel bi, da je prava številka med 450 in 650. Vsako leto jih je približno enako v takšnih okvirih.
Kar tri tisoč pa je menda le poskusov?
Poskusov je vedno od pet- do sedemkrat več. Veste, kaj me skrbi – da ne poveva še česa v zvezi z reševanjem zdravstva.
Seveda, izvolite! Prosim, povejte, kako bi lahko preprečili izolski primer?Zelo pomemben je podatek, da je storilec že prej storil kaznivo dejanje – on je že zagrešil rop in bil oborožen. V takšnih primerih je treba neprestano nadzirati, ker obstaja zelo velika verjetnost ponovitve podobnega dejanja. Moramo imeti t. i. tečnobne službe, ki osebo vsak mesec pregledujejo – ali ima orožje in ali je legalno ipd. Pa še nekaj bi rad poudaril v zvezi z zdravstvom, o čemer se javna razprava še ni odprla, pa bi se morala: strošek za racionalno opredeljeno preventivo ni tako visok, kot če imamo poškodovan kader na bolniški. Le izračunajmo, koliko nas stane en zdravstveni tehnik, medicinska sestra ali zdravnik, ki je bolniško odsoten mesec, dva ali eno leto! Pri osebju imamo namreč precej telesnih poškodb, podplutb, tudi zlomov nog, ki jih zadajo pacienti.
O koliko primerih govorimo?
Verbalni napadi se pojavljajo pri 60 odstotkih zaposlenih, telesne napade doživi 10 odstotkov delavcev, resne poškodbe pa trije odstotki. Imeli smo že primer, ko je pacientka udarila medicinsko sestro in je ta delno oglušela – trajno. Na psihiatriji je tovrstnih napadov zagotovo največ v celotnem zdravstvu.
Jih je vedno več?
Ja, leta 2015 smo imeli 25 intervencij policije, letos 39.
Kako se odziva osebje?
Na intenzivnih oddelkih obvladajo agresijo samo zdravstveni tehniki, ki imajo za seboj tudi dodatna šolanja za obvladovanje agresivnih pacientov, da jih skoraj ne poškodujejo. Pogosto se dogaja, da policija prepusti pacienta, da ga umiri naše osebje.
Koliko pa je dokazanih neupravičenih napadov vašega osebja na bolnike?
Razmerje gre precej v škodo zaposlenim. Vsako pritožbo pacientov resno strokovno proučimo. Kadar se neko dejanje ponovi pri eni in isti osebi, pa ostreje ukrepamo, možna je tudi prekinitev delovnega razmerja. To se do zdaj še ni zgodilo, ker ni bilo tehtnega razloga.
Ste za uvedbo detektorjev v bolnišnicah, kjer je možnost napadov z orož jem večja, denimo tudi na urgencah?
Sem, zakaj pa ne. Saj greste tudi v prodajalni z živili mimo detektorja, pa ni zato čakalna vrsta nič daljša. Naj vam nekaj preberem (Vzame v roke popis najnovejših podatkov): Iz podatkov kazalnika najdeni ostri predmeti pri pacientih je razvidno, da pri (Poudari.) tedenskih pregledih pacientovih stvari in njihove okolice najdemo nože in ostre predmete.
Nekoč ste lepo dejali, da smo Slovenci narod, ki je tradicionalno uvrščen med Germane in Rimljane, zato za preživetje potrebujemo več agresije. Kje pa najti tisto pravo mero, da se ne bomo bodisi preveč usmerjali vase bodisi v druge?
Že v jugoslovanskem merilu sva s prof. Miličinskim (Levom, slovenskim psihiatrom, op. a) preverjala zanimiv teoretski koncept, da se energetski potencial za agresijo, kanalizira bodisi v umor ali bodisi v samomor. Denimo regija Kosovo skoraj ni imela samomorov, je bilo pa veliko ubojev. Pogosto se dogaja prav ta dinamika. Tam, kjer je ogromno umorov, denimo v Latinski Ameriki, skoraj ni samomorov. Morate pa upoštevati tudi različnost poročanja o nekem pojavu: V Italiji, ki je precej verna, so za marsikateri samomor rekli, da je človek kar nekako umrl, medtem ko so v bivši Sovjetski zvezi mnoge uboje s strani služb uradno opredelili kot samomore. Dokaz, da imamo Slovenci v sebi dovolj agresivnega naboja, vam pokaže uspeh v športu. Katerem? Individualnem, skupinski nam ne gre.
Prepogosto pogovorimo v ključnih trenutkih.
Tako je. Slovenec se zna opreti le sam nase, a ko je treba z drugimi sprejeti pomemben konsenz, se umakne. Tudi ne zna biti vodja. Biti voditelj pomeni biti odgovoren, ne pa, da imaš kraljevo ali božje poslanstvo. Slovenci bi se morali naučiti agresijo usmerjati bolj konstruktivno, pred tem pa vsak svojo tudi obvladovati, jo imeti pod nadzorom ter destruktivno motoriko usmeriti v dejavnost, ki omogoča in ne prekinja življenja. Preprosto rečeno: pamet, ki je bolj oddaljena od telesnih procesov, ima potencial redukcije agresije.
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Pri nas je veliko iznajdljivosti, kar pa dolgoročno ni dovolj. Pregovorna slovenska iznajdljivost je dobra lastnost, dokler se borimo za eksistenco; kadar gre za več od tega, ko iznajdljivost uporabljamo namesto znanja in pameti, pa se dogaja zgolj manipulacija, ki prinaša nepopravljivo, tudi nacionalno škodo, iznajdljivcu pa začasen ali kratkotrajen triumf. Posledično je to bolj senzacionalno in kot tako bolj priljubljeno med ljudmi – tudi volivci. Pa še nekaj: Slovenci smo do tujcev prijazni, krasen narod. Takšni moramo biti še do sebe – v množini. To je naš potencial. Prepričan sem, da se bo postopek kristalizacije bistvenih vrednot začel slej ko prej sam po sebi, vendar z zakasnitvijo, torej šele čez dvajset ali trideset let. Velika škoda, da ne bi začeli že zdaj.
I WAS THE FIRST TO RECEIVE GROWTH HORMONE INJECTIONS IN EASTERN EUROPE: What I rated started at my age 1(12 month of age), commenced at age 6 months when still in diapers - UPDATED(Friday, September 1, 2023) PORTION OF COMPLAIN INVOLVING GROWTH HORMONE INJECTIONS AND GROWTH HORMONE RETARDATION/DESTRUCTION INJECTIONS https://ausertimes.blogspot.com/2023/09/what-i-rated-started-at-my-age-112.html
My early childhood private care was ran at Ragovska ulica in Novo mesto by Serbian family from Croatia which head(husband Tatalović) was employed his entire life at Yugoslav army as an officer – at age 3, 4, 5, and 6 years old, Slovenian system within Yugoslav federation substituted mentioned private childcare with the public kindergarten next door also at Ragovska ulica now known as Ciciban – entire group of selected children at the kindergarten Ragovska was ran through selected educators by local police department in Novo mesto city whom they had to report to and from where police was paying occasional visitations to the kindergarten – same thereon repeated with class A at grammar school known as Osnovna Šola Grm which I entered at age 6 years old and where the two older teachers warned me about MK Ultra danger giving me FIRST A THREE MONTHS AND THEN 3 MONTHS more of the timeline for me to request urgent school transfer from Osnovna Grm to Osnovna Šola Katja Rupena(both located in the city of the Novo mesto).
NOTE: What I just stated was a product of heavily RE INTRODUCED(over and over again over the period of 48 years) IN THE SO CALLED MK ULTRA PROCEDURE, a procedure used to confuse/errate/ wild pitch/ BEWILDER VICTIM(myself) ON TIMING AND SPACE as per when/ where/how it all took place. MK ULTRA WILL FROM HERE ON BE REFERRED TO as harrowing/torment/ torture/devastation /traumatisation /overkill from the torture point of vew in the name of CHAOS procedure, supported beginning at the age 8 years in real time with school psychologists and at age 41 with none other than psychiatrists from Ljubljana Polje through the most severe sleep deprivation procedures. Psychiatric hospital Ljubljana Polje was involved since earliest beginnings as it would be next to police officers, state prosecutors, also psychiatric personnel that would transport me from Novo mesto to Belgrade.
To be drugged up(I assume since I never ever used any drugs in my life time) is one thing and totally different is to be drugged up without capacity of any kind to resist violence for the cost of own life – even when observed being poisoned/punched/ or pushed down stairways/rocks whatever. MK Ultra drugs used by governments prevented me from exercising full consciousness and were also designed to freeze mind as soon as I would loose interest in desired by MK Ultra staff members topics/interrogation/brainwash. A potential resistance to hijackers as I was FORCED to acknowledge one as was interpreted to me as a form of possible incident which easily could led into my death and for which no one ever would find out truth even for the cost of injuring a participants(EVEN DEMONSTRATED ON SEVERAL OCCASIONS HOW I COULD FALL FROM MILITARY PLANE AND/OR HOW MY BODY WOULD BE RETRIEVED IF KILLED IN EUROPE FROM OCEANFRONT WATERS IN MIAMI BEACH WHERE I RESIDED BEGINNING 1995 FOR 11.5 YEARS). Physical violence factor next to total chaos was present in every MK Ultra session routinely for no less than 49 YEARS.
Drugs used, simply froze brain leaving me to respond events/environment with mostly subconsciously responsive part of the brain – was not allowed to provide educated answers, but only to respond what means certain portion of the brain used to provide one with complex brain operation as to logic was disallowed to function during MK Ultra torture in respect to certain types of topics and what I never ever stated or wanted to have anything to do with was told in advance I would with cite, “you didn't yet, but you will” and further “you just did ” with total interpretation of events/words till I opened myself to very much desired rebel attitude with which luckily for me I despite everything have refused to have anything to do with. Fact that I pursued career in law enforcement in USA throughout my entire stay there next to ZERO crime record, have driven MK Ultra participants more and more insane/mad.
As to whatever was left from nightmares(the so called MK Ultra sessions), all was scattered and demolitioned with additional use of ECT – electroshocks. Beginning the age 8 years, electroshocks got one more companion which dared to doubt over the course of coming years sanity in my face during MK Ultra nightmares....the threat of psychiatric hospitalization(total brain killer – designed for brain to consciously reject any thought on what went on to avoid the worst – a threat designed for me to learn to tolerate life with psychiatric police knife under the throat 24/7 and 364 days a year, year after year and what turned into decade after decade) begun to appear on the horizon more and more often for daring to open my mouths about what went on. PSYCHIATRIC HOSPITALIZATION WAS ULTIMATE AND MORE EFFICIENT BRAIN KILLER THAN ELECTROSHOCS PROCEDURES. ONE DICTATED FOR ME TO SIMPLY REFUSE TO UTILIZE BRAIN OR FACE DEATH.
BACK TO RE THE INTRODUCED(over and over again over the period of 48 years) IN THE SO CALLED MK ULTRA PROCEDURE, a procedure used to confuse/errate/ wild pitch/ BEWILDER VICTIM(myself) ON TIMING AND SPACE as per when/ where/how it all took place.
My case was a case of human experimentation(HUMAN BUTCHERY) case per Yugoslav dictator Josip Broz Tito and Soviet apparatus from Moscow whom greater than Great Britain(WEST as was also for United States of America and others) wanted to impress at all costs through Yugoslav republic of Slovenia using some university institute in Slovenian Ljubljana city and Celje area during 1971 for purposes of testing human growth hormone injections AS WELL AS HUMAN DEVELOPMENT RETARDATION INJECTIONS(although not directly affiliated with bio engineering as much as institute of Jožef Štefan which was designed as a primary institution for mentioned growth hormone butcheries imported from the West, there were two more government facilities/labs in above mentioned area which willingly would play if not carried out by mentioned institute as was told in 1975 and even played to somewhat cover-up for institute of Jožef Štefan – this human butchery was a super success based on which I learned when delivered to United States of America, entire world even begun to function – despite my being suggested how technology is Western and I was used for experimentation purposes of one in eastern Europe, I had to acknowledge also for the kids in USA to have become recipients of such growth hormone technology).
Testing of human growth hormone injections AS WELL AS HUMAN DEVELOPMENT RETARDATION INJECTIONS didn't start at age 4 years as I deliberately suggested above and as I was repeatedly brainwashed with by Slovenian republic from Yugoslav federation as well as by independent Slovenian state after 1991 till year 2017/2018 at age 48 when murderous Slovenian system surrounded with international environment no longer knew how to convince one on world of ULTRA VIOLENT lies build around me....CRIPPLED FOR LIFE SINCE EARLY AGE BECAUSE OF MURDEROUS WRACKLESS SLOVENIAN NATION, AND LIED WHILE DRUGGED UP EVEN AT AGE 48 TO INFRONT OF ENTIRE WORLD TO OMIT GENOCIDE AGAINST MYSELF. GLASSES AS WELL AS DISFIGURED PENIS SIZE BECAME EARLIEST PERMANENT LIFE MARKERS OF YUGOSLAV SERBIAN SLOVENIAN AND RUSSIAN MADNESS AGAINST ME FOR WHICH I WAS TUTORED BY EDUCATORS AND SCHOOLMATES SINCE AGE 3 AT RESIDENCY OF JOSIP BROZ TITO TO EVEN BE ASHAMED OF MYSELF BECAUSE OF BEING DISFIGURED(penis). IT WAS A HUMAN BESTIALITY WHICH, HOWEVER, ONLY WAS GAINING NEW GROUNDS AGAINST ME....SLOVENIA WAS DETERMINED TO MURDER ME THROUGH DEVELOPMENT OF ANTI SOCIAL PERSONALITY STIGMA RELATED ISSUES ALL SUPPORTED THROUGH DAILY ULTRA VIOLENCE ENCOUNTERED IN SCHOOL SETTINGS.
It was a case of human experimentation in which babies as young as 6 months age https://ausertimes.blogspot.com/2023/08/growth-hormone-injections-playused-to.html were subjected to such brutal procedure with my being used as the first baby in Yugoslavia(this was my age when chaotic insanity to Belgrade commenced – they loaded in cars and transported me to Belgrade during nights or very very early morning hours – while very often times present, my own father was not allowed to transit me to Belgrade on his own...my father developed based on MK Ultra torture/harrowing a totally INSENSITIVE TO PAINFULL FOR HUMAN ISSUES a personality...my father no longer wanted to see in me a child and my father often times desired and preferred MK Ultra human condition in me opposed to a normal circumstances during which he claimed had a problem even dressing me up...he turned into insensitive first class ultra violent lunatic and became as such for me unrecognizable...he further was hiding his atrocities against me by never ever hugging me or demonstrating me human affections of any kind...father in fact ridiculed human affections and begun to practice heavy consumption of medications for unfounded diseases of which one was asthma....I believe for that matter, my father alone was subjected to MK Ultra in Belgrade where he traveled and had female company next to him during his stay...father forced himself into coughing and have refused to self restrain from one...father went on to demonstrate violent gorilla alike behavior inside of the household where he wanted to be seen as the physically and verbally strongest/aggressive patron – violence at times by far exceeded one in the school).
When it all started, I didn't have even a capacity to understand what went on and was entangled just as all other babies delivered to Belgrade into the world of diapers – NEXT TO CRYING AND PLAYING WITH THEM, I HAVE SEEN OTHER BABIES SORTED OUT AND WAS ALIGNED AT TIMES ON THE BACK WITH(next to) THEM FOR NURSING STAFF TO THEIR PART DURING WHICH WE ALSO GOT SPEECH FOR THE DAY. But my sister next to mother, and others wouldn't allow my mind to slip away through earliest childhood and at times I found myself as almost a newborn in a world in which I was rather rushed to move hands, move legs and other parts to get dressed up as fast as possible for journeys to unknown. In this chaotic “unknown” destination KNOWN AS BELGRADE, I GOT TO MEET BABIES FROM WHAT BECAME EVIDENT MOSTLY WERE FROM OTHER PARTS OF YUGOSLAV FEDERATION IN SOMEWHAT SIMILAR RITUAL AS TO THE ONE WHICH TOOK PLACE SOMEWHERE IN SLOVENIA JUST PRIOR TO BELGRADE MISSIONS(WITH PERHAPS BABY OR TWO FROM SLOVENIA, IT ALL DEPENDED ON WHOM SYSTEM WANTED WHEN IN BELGRADE – WIFE OF JOSIP BROZ TITO, JOVANKA BROZ, ACTED AS NEXT TO CHIEF NURSE ALSO AS A HEAD NURSE WHO ISSUED INCLUDING TO CHIEF NURSE AN ORDERS FOR ALL TO FOLLOW HER PROTOCOL...WITH JOVANKA BROZ AND A HEAD NURSE, THERE WERE TOTAL PERHAPS 6 NURSES INSIDE OF THE JOSIP BROZ TITO RESIDENCE, HOWEVER, OPERATION WAS RAN ON MUCH BROADER SCALE AND WENT ON AT THE MAIN BELGRADE'S HOSPITAL FOR MATERNITY WITH MUCH GREATER NUMBER OF PHYSICIANS/NURSES/STAFF AS WELL AS AT SOME SUPER CHAOTIC VIOLENT EITHER HOSPITAL OR SCHOOL DEPARTMENT – ITS IMPORTANT FOR ME TO VOICE HERE STATED ISSUE BECAUSE AS AN EXAMPLE, SLOVENIAN MINSTER INVOLVED SAME AGE TANJA FAJON GOT A VERY SPECIAL KIND TREATMENT WHILE I DIDN'T KNOW WHERE MY HEAD WAS PRIOR TO RETURN TO THE LOCATION WHERE SHE WAS AT AND THEN BACK TO SLOVENIA – SHE, HOWEVER, KNEW ABOUT WHAT WENT ON WITH ME AND SO DID OTHER PRIVILEGED SLOVENIAN KIDS WHO DIDN'T MIND MISTREATMENT AGAINST ME IN BELGRADE) – AN EXTREMELY IMPORTANT FACTOR AS IT ALSO EXPLAINS ISSUE OF PARANOID SCHIZOPHRENIA WITH WHICH ULTRA VIOLENT SLOVENIAN LJUBLJANA POLJE PSYCHIATRISTS HAVE LABELED ME WITH IN YEAR 2013 AT AGE 41.
AS FOR BELGRADE HORROR, KINDERGARTEN AND GRAMMAR SCHOOL TEACHERS/EDUCATORS FROM HOME CITY OF NOVO MESTO HAVE PRESCRIBED ME(ordered my sister and mother) PLENTY OF SWEETS TO EAT....THOSE ACCORDING TO ALSO SCHOOL PSYCHOLOGISTS INVOLVED AT THE TIME WOULD EASE MY DEPRESSION ISSUES I ENCOUNTERED AT AGE ONE AND HALF YEAR OLD....WHOLE THING WAS UNPRECEDENTED VIOLENCE AND SWEETS ACCORDING TO MY MEMORY DUE TO DETAILED EXPLANATION FROM PSYCHOLOGISTS, WOULD SOMEWHAT SOFTEN/RELAX/ AMORTIZE TRAUMA OTHERWISE AS DESTRUCTIVE AND DEADLY AS ANYTHING IN THE WORLD OF BABY COULD AND CAN BE – THIS WAS THE DEGREE OF VIOLENCE I ENDURED AT MY EARLY AGE IN BELGRADE AND AS IT BECAME EVIDENT BACK IN NOVO MESTO WHERE DROWNING MEMORIES ON HORROR IN EXCESSIVE AMOUNTS OF FOOD. INDEED A LOTS OF MORE PEOPLE WERE INVOLVED IN THIS GENOCIDE THAN WHAT POLICE CALLED OUT INFRONT OF INTERNATIONAL AUTHORITIES WHO ALREADY INVESTIGATED THIS MATTER.
LET ME EXPLAIN IN DETAILS A BACKGROUND ABOUT SLOVENIAN AND YUGOSLAV ISSUE OF LABELING ME WITH FUTURE PARANOID SCHIZOPHRENIA ILLNESS – HOW/WHEN IT WAS DONE AND JUST HOW CRIMINAL/GENOCIDAL WHOLE THING WAS/IS.... EARLY AGE KINDERGARTEN FEMALE EDUCATORS FROM RAGOVSKA KINDERGARTEN AS WELL AS FEMALE EDUCATORS FROM GRAMMAR SCHOOL OSNOVNA ŠOLA GRM WHOM I WOULD OCCASIONALLY MEET DURING WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ONLY HOME STAY, OR PRIVATE CHILDCARE, OR WHAT BECAME A KINDERGARTEN STAY AND/OR EVEN MORE SO BELGRADE WHERE FEW TRAVELED AT TIMES AT MY PERSONAL REQUEST/DEMAND BEGINNING AGE LESS THAN 1 YEARS OF AGE(BEGINNING WITH 8 MONTHS OF AGE TO BE EXACT ON A MILLIMETER). WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN HOME STAY WAS NOT BECAUSE AT TIMES, I SPENT TIME WITH PRIVATE CARERS AND THROUGH PRIVATE CARERS OR HOME STAY, I DO FIND MYSELF ALSO INSIDE OF THE KINDERGARTEN FOR A DAY OR TWO HERE AND THEN....THIS(KNOWING KINDERGARTEN EDUCATORS FROM THE PAST) MADE ENTRY INTO KINDERGARTEN A WHOLE DIFFERENT EXPERIENCE NOT TO MENTION GRAMMAR SCHOOL WHICH I ENTERED AND WHERE I ENCOUNTERED TWO FEMALE TEACHERS WHO USED TO TRAVEL TO BELGRADE WITH ME BEGINNING AT SUPER EARLY AGE EVEN AT MY REQUEST AS STATED ABOVE(ONE OF THE GRAMMAR SCHOOL TEACHERS TEACHERS WHO TRAVELED WITH ME TO BELGRADE WHEN I WAS LESS THAN A YEAR OLD WAS NOT DIRECTLY MY TEACHER AT GRAMMAR SCHOOL AND NO ONE NEEDS TO KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT IT TILL CASE IS CLOSED – WE HAVE EXTREMELY CRIMINAL/CORRUPT POLICE IN HERE, AND I DO RESERVE IN THE WORLD WHERE I PROVIDED MORE ABOUNDAND AMOUNT OF PROOFS FOR EVERY ISSUE TO KEEP FEW ACES IN MY SLEEVES JUST IN CASE IF HAVE TO STEP SOMEONE'S TOES IN THE FUTURE – POLICE IS INVESTIGATING MY WRITING AND I BELIEVE ALSO IS FOLLOWING UP ON ONE WITH PEOPLE INVOLVED FOR GOOD OR BAD IS YET TO BE DETERMINED)...
WHY SUCH ISSUE IS SO IMPORTANT !!??? BECAUSE IT DEMONSTRATES BEGINNING AND JUST HOW MUCH ILLICIT CRIMINAL INHUMANE PROCEDURE SLOVENIA HAVE COMMITTED ITSELF TO, TO GET ME INDEFINITELY DESTROYED ON A LONG RUN.
SLOVENIAN STATE WOULDN'T CONFUSE ON SUCH ISSUES IF CONFUSION DIDN'T MATTER TO ONE....THIS EARLY ON CONFUSION, ON TIMING AS PER WHO/WHERE/HOW, HAVE AFTERWARDS EXPENDED THROUGHOUT MY LIFE TIME INVOLVING SAME PRINCIPLES/METHODS DURING HIGH SCHOOL, MILITARY SERVICE, JOBS ETC. AND WOULD UNDER POTENTIAL THREATS IF EXERCISED AGAINST STATE FROM MY SIDE, CORRESPONDED WITH WHAT PSYCHIATRISTS BELIEVED WOULD BE THEIR ABILITY TO SHUT MY MOUTHS BY SIMPLY LABELING ME AS MENTALLY ILL AT JUST ABOUT ANY TIME(PER THEIR CONVENIENCE). THEIR BIGGEST PROBLEM WAS MY NEVER EVER MENTIONEDINGING DESPITE BEING HEAVILY ENCOURAGED TO AN EXISTENCE OF MK ULTRA PROCEDURE ITSELF FOR WHICH I KNEW IF WITHOUT 100% LEGITIMATE PHYSICAL PROOFS IN HANDS https://ausertimes.blogspot.com/2020/11/not-complete-what-police-ignored-so.html, I DO ENDUP AS GOOD AS DEAD. BETTER AS DEAD THAN ANY “GOOD” IF THERE IS SUCH THING INSIDE OF THE PSYCHIATRIC MEDICATIONS INSIDE OF THE PSYCHIATRIC WARD.
IN 2010 UPON MY RETURN TO SLOVENIA FROM SWEDEN WHEN FOR THE FIRST TIME I OPENLY STRESSED OUT EXISTENCE OF MK ULTRA CRIME IN MY CASE AND POINTED AT THE PROOFS, IT BECAME CLEAR ABOUT MY BEING RIGHT ON THE TARGET WHEN STATED ON HOW I DO ENDUP DEAD JUST FOR MENTIONING EXISTENCE OF MK ULTRA CRIME IN MY CASE. TORTURE UNDER MK ULTRA ACCELERATED AND INTENSIFIED SINCE FOR ME TO FINALLY ENDUP AT AGE 41(3 YEARS LATTER) IN 2013 THROUGH DOMESTIC VIOLENCE CASE FILED AGAINST ME FOR WHICH SLOVENIAN STATE USED MY PARENTS AND CLOSE RELATIVES, FOR THE FIRST TIME INSIDE OF THE PSYCHIATRIC HOSPITAL LJUBLJANA POLJE WHERE PSYCHIATRISTS OPERATED FROM AGAINST ME SINCE MY EARLY AGE.
PARANOID CORRESPONDS WITH worried, cautious, careful, skeptical, nervous, anxious, wary, suspicious, distrustful, mistrustful, negativism, doubting, questioning, curious, disbelieving
AND SCHIZOPHRENIC WITH sociopathic, paranoiac, delusional, obsessive-compulsive, disordered, delusionary, delirious, disturbed, psychotic, unstable, demented, deranged, worried, distressed, anxious, overanxious, bothered, crazed, restless, psycho, mental, whacky, lunatic, jittery, maniacal, unbalanced, nervous, eccentric, maniac, jumpy, unsettled, uneasy, nutty, loony, wacko, insane, unquiet, batty, certifiable, oddball, wacky, irrational, mad, bedlam, skittish, screwy, kooky, scatty, barmy, moonstruck, tense, cuckoo, crackpot, unhinged, whacko, nuts, strange, unsound, unreasonable, crazy, haywire, obsessed, looney tunes, crackbrained, odd
WITHOUT PROVES AT HAND IN A CRIMINAL CORRUPT WORLD AS WAS/IS WITH LEVEL OF THE PEOPLE INVOLVED IN GENOCIDE AGAINST ME RIGHT FROM THE TOP OF THE STATE, DEFINITION OF PARANOID SCHIZOPHRENIA BECOMES A REALITY. WHILE NOT ACTUAL, THE RIGHTS TO EXISTENCE OF ONE ARE OF THE LESSER IMPORTANCE THAN CRIME.
JUST AS WAS THE CASE WITH KINDERGARTEN, GRAMMAR SCHOOL, ETC. - THEY BEGUN SETTING ME UP THROUGHOUT ADULTHOOD WITH AN UNDERGROUND LIFE THROUGH TIME FRAMES BY MEETING COMPANY OWNERS AND FUTURE COWORKERS AS A GROWN UP – MK ULTRA PROCEDURE THROUGHOUT ADULTHOOD WAS INDIFFERENT FROM CRIMINAL PROCEDURE I JUST DESCRIBED TOOK PLACE WAY PRIOR TO MY ENTERING EVEN KINDERGARTEN AND/OR GRAMMAR SCHOOL...SOME PEOPLE INVOLVED IN MK ULTRA AS A TEACHERS, COWORKERS, BOSSES, COMPANY OWNERS ETC., WOULD SOMETIMES GET TO MEET ME ON THE SIDE BEFORE I WOULD ENTER OR COMMENCE NEW ASSIGNMENTS IN LIFE....
This RE INTRODUCED IN THE SO CALLED MK ULTRA PROCEDURE, a procedure used to confuse/errate/ wild pitch/ BEWILDER VICTIM(myself) ON TIMING AND SPACE as per when/where/how it all took place OCCASIONALLY repeated over and over again THROUGHOUT ENTIRE GENOCIDE ORDEAL FOR NO LESS THAN 49 YEARS AND WAS ALSO USED TO SET TIME BLOCKS BY INJECTING THROUGH PSYCHIATRIC DEATH THREATS IN TORTURE A SEEMINGLY LOGIC SCENARIOS WHICH WOULD HAVE ONE DARE HIMSELF(MYSELF IN THIS CASE IF I WOULD SOMEHOW ENTER INSECURITY MODE – THE THING IS WHILE I PLAYED AT TIMES STUPID TO GET BYE AND AS IT DIDN'T MAKE ANY SENSE OTHER THAN TO COMPLAY WITH VIOLENCE, I NEVER EVER DID ENTERED MODE OF NOT KNOWING WHERE I CAME FROM) TO DOUBT ABOUT REALITY...EXAMPLE, ENTRY TO GRAMMAR SCHOOL, ENTRY TO HIGH SCHOOL, MILITARY SERVICE, DEPARTURE TO AUSTRIA, DEPARTURE TO UNITED STATES OF AMERICA AS YOU ARE ABOUT TO READ AND SO ON – ALL HAD CORNER STONES WITH SPECIFIED ELEMENTS INVOLVED. FOR EACH OF THIS CORNERSTONES, THOSE INVOLVED COMMENCED WHAT THEY DEMANDED FROM ME TO SEE EACH SUCH NEW BEGININGS AS NEW CHAPTERS OF WHICH EACH WAS MARKED WITH PLEASANT AT FIRST NEW REINTRODUCTION OF ALREADY INVOLVED PEOPLE IN MK ULTRA PROCEDURES AND SOON MOST SEVERE TRAUMAS – THUS PROHIBITING ONE FROM UTILIZING HIS BRAIN
GROWTH HORMONE HUMAN EXPERIMENTATION ON ME WAS REPEATED ON SIX OCCASIONS BY THE TIME I REACHED AGE 5 OR PERHAPS 6 YEARS OF AGE AND WAS NO LONGER AS WAS TOLD VAILABLE. TO AGAIN RECEIVE GROWTH HORMONE INJECTIONS AFTER REPEATED GROWTH HORMONE KILLER INJECTIONS WERE USED TO CONTRARY TO GROWTH/DEVELOPMENT CAUSED ME AS MUCH AS HARM AS POSSIBLE, PERMANENTLY WEAK/DISTORTED/ DEGENERATED HUMAN BONES WOULD DEVELOP WAS TOLD AT MY REPEATED REQUEST TO HELP ME BY POLICE/PSYCHIATRISTS/ PROSECUTORS INVOLVED IF SUCH PROCEDURE WOULD BE USED JUST ONE MORE TIME
THEY CITED ME DUE TO TOO MANY TIMES BOTH WERE IMPLEMENTED ON ME AND WHILE ALSO POINTING ME IN THE FACE CHILDREN WITH BONE CANCER AS WELL AS WITH SEVERE BONE PROBLEMS, CHANCES WERE GREAT ABOUIT MY BECOMING ONE OF THEM WITHOUT HAVING THE ABILITY TO CURE MYSELF EVER AGAIN...THEIR CLAIMS CONTRARY TO CONTINUATION OF GROWTH HORMONE RETARADTION INJECTIONS WHICH SLOVENIAN STATE DESPITE TGEIR CLAIMS CONTINUED TO IMPLEMENT ON ME, WOULD LEAVE ME 100% DEAD.
BEGINNING AGE 7 AS I ENTERED GRAMMAR SCHOOL A GROWTH HORMONE RETARDATION INJECTIONS BEGUN RAIN DOWN ON ME LIKE NEVER EVER BEFORE WITH FINAL GOAL TO CAUSE ME AS MUCH HARM AS POSSIBLE DUE TO WHAT WAS CLAIMED MY DISPROPORTIONAL TO OTHER CHILDREN STRENGTH AND SIZE. IMPLEMENTATION OF INJECTIONS WAS FIRST ENFORCED ON WEEKLY BASES...THEN BIWEEKLY AND THEN EVEN MONTHLY AS I NO LONGER COULD FUNCTION....WHENEVER RECEIVING SUCH INJECTIONS, I WOULD HAVE TROUBLE TO VIEW ON A SCHOOL BOARD THE WRITINGS OF TEACHERS AND COULDN'T FOLLOW QUITE WELL CLASSES. IT FEALT LIKE SOME SORT OF LOBOTOMY. THIS MADDNESS WENT ON FOR AT LEAST ANOTHER 3 YEARS BEFORE INJECTIONS(SHOULD SAY MY CLASSMATES) COULD FINALLY TAKE FULL EFFECT AND START TO CATCH WITH ME AT AGE 11 WHEN MY GROWTH SLOWED DOWN GREATELY WHEN COMPARED TO SCHOOLMATES AND EVEN MORE TO THOSE WHO WERE RECEIVING GROWTH HORMONE INJECTIONS.
MY SCHOOLMATE BOJAN BERGINC WILL TELL YOU ELECTROSHOCS WERE INTRODUCED IN MK ULTRA IN A FOURTH GRADE OF GRAMMAR SCHOOL(AGE 10) AND SO WILL NEIGHBOR BENKO WHOSE FATHER WAS HEAVILY INVOLVED IN MK ULTRA PROCEDURE AS A POLICE OFFICER, BUT TRUTH IS THAT ELECTROSHOCS WERE INVOLVED IN GENOCIDE ALREADY AT MY AGE 8. THEY REPEATEDLY WOULD USE CERTAIN ELEMENTS FOR YEARS, ON WHAT THEY WOULD HAVE THOSE REINTRODUCED IN TORTURE PROCEDURE THROUGH PEOPLE WHOM I ALREADY KNEW WELL TO SET JUST AS EXPLAINED ABOVE A TIME BLOCKS.
OPPOSED TO SERBIAN AND/OR RUSSIAN COUNTERPARTS WHOM I MET AS A BABY, I WAS USED AS A HUMAN TRASH – JUST SOMETHING BY GOVERNMENT SYSTEM TO SEE HOW IT COMPARES TO THE REST AND TO THOSE ASSISTED BY SYSTEM. AND WHILE I SUFFERED SEVERE SIDE EFFECTS OF THESE INJECTIONS THAT LAST ME A LIFE TIME – SLOVENIAN, SERBIAN, AND RUSSIAN COEVALS WERE OFFERED CONTRARY TO ME A GROWTH HORMONE INJECTIONS TO EXCEL IN EVERYTHING – ENCOURAGED TO COMPARE TO ME AND TO SEE THE DIFFERENCE WITHIN WHATEVER SYSTEM SUPPORTS OPPOSED TO WHATEVER THE SYSTEM DETERIORATES FOR SUPPORTED TO THRIVE...UPON WORRY FREE COMPLETIONS OF GRAMMAR SCHOOLS, UNIVERSITIES AWAITED THEM AND LUCRATIVE AT HOME COUNTRIES CAREERS WITH ALL THE SUPPORT ONE COULD GET IN THIS WORLD.
UPON FAILURE OF SLOVENIAN NATION WITHIN YUGOSLAV FEDERATION TO COMPEL ME INTO SCHOOL FOR MENTALLY RETARDED CHILDREN(CHILDREN WITH SPECIAL NEEDS) VIA DAILY PHYSICAL VIOLENCE ENDURED AT HOME AND SPECIALLY IN SCHOOL SETTINGS, EDUCATION ENDED WITH MY BECOMING FIRST A MACHINE MAINTENANCE MECHANIC AND THEN MECHANICAL ENGINEERING TECHNICIAN. JOB NOT EVEN AS EDUCATED FOR WAS OFFERED TO ME IN SLOVENIA UPON MY SUCCESSFUL COMPLETION FOR MECHANICAL ENGINEERING TECHNICIAN WITH THE LESS THAN A DOG PAY OF $100 US DOLLARS PER MONTH FOR 80 HOURS OF WORK PER WEEK IN A METALWORKING INDUSTRY AT THE LOCAL SERB ČRTALIČ(INVOLVED IN GENOCIDE WITH HIS FAMILY SINCE MY EARLY CHILDHOOD) WHOM SLOVENIAN SYSTEM SUPPORTED...DUE TO CANCER INJECTIONS IN MY BODY BEGINNING 8TH GRADE OF GRAMMAR SCHOOL, I BECAME ACCORDING TO MY SCHOOLMATES AT MECHANICAL ENGINEERING TECHNICIAN PROGRAM AT SREDNJA ŠOLA ZDRAVSTVENE IN TEHNIČNE USMERITVE IN NOVO MESTO CITY(WITH THOSE WHO HAD PARENTS RUN OWN PRIVATE COMPANIES) LABELED EVEN AS UNEMPLOYABLE AT AGE 17/18 YEARS OLD – OF A TOO GREAT FINANCIAL RISK DUE TO COMING LYMPHOMA CANCER...UPON DEPARTURE TO UNITED STATES OF AMERICA IN 1995, HUMAN BUTCHERY FROM ALREADY EXISTING LYMPHOMA CANCER INTRODUCED IN MY LEFT ARM, EXPENDED ONTO AREAS OF ACTIVE FOOD POISONING, LIVER/KIDNEY POISONING/ POISONING THROUGH RUT CHANNELS OF TEETH, AND EVEN SPINE BREAKING PROCEDURES WHENEVER AMERICAN CENTRAL INTELLIGENCE AGENCY MANAGED TO HIJACK ME TO SLOVENIA FROM SUNNY MIAMI WHERE I BECAME A RESIDENT...GIFTS AND MONEY(PROVISIONS WHICH BRITISH AND FRENCH DEMANDED FOR ME AT THE NEGOTIATION TABLES IN MOSCOW AND IN BELGRADE) I SUPPOSEDLY RECEIVED BEGINNINGS AS CHILD FROM WESTERN ELITES AND FOR WHICH I WAS LABELED AS TRAITOR(BEATEN UP AND ALIENATED – ISOLATED – DESIGNATION FOR DESTRUCTION/WASTE) AND WHAT SHOULD HELP ME START LIFE ACCORDING TO MY WESTERN ALLIES WERE CONTRARY TO MY COMPETITION ALL STOLEN FROM ME IF ITS TO BELIEVE ANYTHING TO THE BRITISH AND OTHER ROYALS/WESTERN POLITICAL ELITES...AS CLOSE AS I EVER CAME TO EMPLOYMENT AT COMPANIES IN SLOVENIA WHICH EXISTED AND EXIST BECAUSE OF ME(WESTERN TECHNOLOGY WHICH E NTERED COUNTRY THROUGH THIS CASE) SUCH AS IS LETS SAY KRKA PHARMACEUTICAL OR RENAULT, WAS BY MY DEPOSITING EMPLOYMENT APPLICATION ON THE DESKS OF HUMAN RESOURCE DEPARTMENTS WHILE WATCHING CLASSMATES EITHER CONTINUING EDUCATION AT UNIVERSITIES OR EARNING DECENT SALARIES WITH EASE AT WHATEVER LOCAL LOCATION THEY DESIRED...THIS IS WHAT I WAS TO SLOVENIA WHEN ONE WAS PART OF YUGOSLAV FEDERATION AND SLOVENIA UPON ITS INDEPENDENCE IN NEWLY INDEPENDENT SLOVENIAN STATE....
6 MONTHS OF AGE BECAUSE IMPACT OF GROWTH HORMONE AND INJECTIONS USED TO KILL GROWTH/DEVELOPMENT HORMONE IN/ON ONE ARE EVIDENT(VISIBLE) MUCH MORE DURING HIS/HER EARLY CHILDHOOD THAN TEENAGE YEARS. THATS WHY AND THATS HOW. IT ALL STARTED WITH AGE OF 6 MONTHS WHEN IN DIAPERS SHIPPED TO BELGRADE LIKE AN ANIMAL.
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